Whenever I'm sad, I always wish my journals were more informative. Wish they told me in greater detail of all the happy times I had, but those are the parts I tend to just keep to myself or only mention in passing. I had a great day yesterday and it ended in the worst way possible. So I'll just sit here alone and cry until I feel better. There really is not much else to be done as far as I can tell or care to do.

The one time I don't ruin a relationship that is really great in my life, someone else comes along to steal it away. I never felt more life dying as I did yesterday and never got as close. It's pathetic if I were to see the problem from a 3rd person's point of veiw, but damn it hurts so much from my own.

When people tell you to grow up or act like an adult, it just mean do what they tell you. Perrhaps that's a dim way of looking at it but it feels real now. To act like an adult would mean I would leave them and start out on my own, but that's not what they want me to do. In fact they just want me to realize I am acting too old for my age and stop what I'm doing. "You're too young to do this so grow up and act your age." Mixed messages?

It is my behavior that caused all this and that is easy to forget, but the actions taken to stop my fun seem extreme in the least. I'm a silly little teenager how easy to forget.

I wish, like most my age, to be older. So until then, cleary, my punishment is too wait for such a day that may never come now. And so my friends, we begin the countdown. 1 year, 2 months, and 18 days until I turn 18. I will not even be free then, how ironic.

Whenever I'm sad, I always wish my journals were more informative. Wish they told me in greater detail of all the happy times I had, but those are the parts I tend to just keep to myself or only mention in passing. I had a great day yesterday and it ended in the worst way possible. So I'll just sit here alone and cry until I feel better. There really is not much else to be done as far as I can tell or care to do.

The one time I don't ruin a relationship that is really great in my life, someone else comes along to steal it away. I never felt more life dying as I did yesterday and never got as close. It's pathetic if I were to see the problem from a 3rd person's point of veiw, but damn it hurts so much from my own.

When people tell you to grow up or act like an adult, it just mean do what they tell you. Perrhaps that's a dim way of looking at it but it feels real now. To act like an adult would mean I would leave them and start out on my own, but that's not what they want me to do. In fact they just want me to realize I am acting too old for my age and stop what I'm doing. "You're too young to do this so grow up and act your age." Mixed messages?

It is my behavior that caused all this and that is easy to forget, but the actions taken to stop my fun seem extreme in the least. I'm a silly little teenager how easy to forget.

I wish, like most my age, to be older. So until then, cleary, my punishment is too wait for such a day that may never come now. And so my friends, we begin the countdown. 1 year, 2 months, and 18 days until I turn 18. I will not even be free then, how ironic.

Well I feel a lot better today, been writing more lately. Something in the air perhaps? Anyways I feel great and with any luck I'll get some stories up soon. I do wish I had my camera still sometimes. I feel like I'm losing what skill I had from not being able to work with a camera for so long. Maybe a camera will fall out of the sky! I can hope right?

Eh. . .
I feel pathetic. I haven't been working on any writing for weeks, really, except a few minor scraps. I haven't really read anything lately either. I need to do something will life.
I don't apply myself is what people say to me. Fuck them I'd just rather be writing or something. Now that I'm actually getting into what they enjoy I feel like I'm not doing anything with my life, go figure.

I'm not quite sure what is in the air today, but I'm in a fantastic mood :] I'm rather looking forward to my Shakespeare meeting today, because I'm planning to bring a camera along. Then I'm heading over to Justin's afterwards (i think) and I've never really let him take my picture before. Is today the day?
Juan you've got me all inspired! I really what to do a photoshoot. Dress up in funny clothes and run around with a camera type thing. Sounds nifty cool.
Haven't been writing much lately (besides my science homework) so nothing for you guys D; I'm sorry, maybe tonight I'll start work on a new piece. Hmm

Hope you guys are having fun too! You are right? <333